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2031-01-01 10:34 pm

Gone, But Not Forgotten

This journal is now friends-only. All fic is now friends-only. Please comment to be added.

All of Good Kid, Gone Missing can be found Here.

ETA: Clearly this only applies to my real-life posts because I'm still all squee happy about fandom and stuff. I'll go through over the next week and unlock all my previous fic. *nods*
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2012-01-15 04:07 pm

Fannish friend

Okay, so I was randomly surfing various journals, looking for reaction posts to Sherlock 2x02 (aka Hounds of Baskerville) as I impatiently wait for the newest episode to finish downloading, when I stumbled upon an entry all about how someone met their first fannish friend from RL (instead of through the internet) and I was like: Ohhhhh, I have a story like that! And got all prepared to share it, here, when it occurred to me that most of my RL friends at least peripherally participate in fandom (except one who just kind of nods and smiles when I talk about it and then asks about bondage and BDSM because she thinks it's hilarious that I read that shit and am basically asexual).

But I still want to share the story of how I met V, and I can't remember her LJ name and I have no clue how to code it on DW, so I shall just call her V and she knows who she is.

At the time I worked for Red Cross and there was a wildfire (okay, the running joke here is this: 'when was there *not* a wildfire?' because for four years I had literally dozens of them crop up) and three kids came in to volunteer. Now, we had literally hundreds of people show up to volunteer and one of the groups that I was leading (the geeky/numbers one) needed people but most people don't want to do geeky/numbers things so there was a definite shortfall.

One of my favorite volunteers, Patricia, got up in front of basically everyone there and asks for any geeks or nerds to come forward and volunteer with the group. And three people did. V and her friend, and some guy that I don't remember. I started working with the group, training them, supervising them, and OMG, it turned out that V and her friend were hilarious and my age and I was like: Ohhhhhhhhhhh, volunteers that are actually as nerdy as me! I had a *blast* during that wildfire, which is a weird thing to say, but alas, 'tis true.

Then the wildfire ended and V continued to volunteer with Red Cross, but the other two didn't (I think? maybe?). Anyways, she started coming in a lot and we totally started hanging out and I kept thinking, the ENTIRE time, "she'd be a perfect fannish friend except I have no clue if she likes fandom or slash or ANYTHING and this is deeply, deeply distressing". And there isn't really a good way to ask somebody if they thought Harry and Draco were getting it on, you know? I actually don't remember what fandoms I was in at the time, so um, yeah. *shrug* Probably Doctor Who, because we're always talking about Doctor Who...

Anyways, finally one day I ask if she'd seen Supernatural and what she thought of it, because I was debating watching it. And she was like: "um, why would you watch it unless you like the gay incest" but the thing was? She shouted the words "Gay Incest" and I was at work and that isn't something you normally hear in a Red Cross office.

Eventually we get alone and start squeeing about slash and fandom and gay incest and everything and anything, and it was amazing. To this day V is like, V, one of my closest friends (even if we hardly ever see each other and almost never talk, because I'm a bitch who doesn't talk to my friends all that often. Okay, more like I'm antisocial and too much social interaction is not good for me). She's the entire reason I saw Sherlock Holmes 2 and Thor and countless other movies that I really don't want to list, because it's kind of embarrassing. If I could figure out a way to make her move to my town, I would, because she's kind of funny and amazing like that. But she's happy and like, has a boyfriend and a life somewhere else, so I can't blackmail her into it.

V, you need to work on being more accessible to my forms of blackmail! I command you! Or just let me crash at your place during Presidents Weekend because I will need to escape by then, for sure.

Anyways, yes, RL fannish friends = AMAZING.

And I totally need to work on my friendship skills or something, because it just occurred to me how often I actually talk to my friends.
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2009-08-07 11:03 am

5 things meme

This one has been floating around and I liked it, so I thought I'd try it out. Give me a topic and I'll create a top-5 list for that topic. Any topic goes.

Have fun!
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2009-07-08 08:16 pm

Cocaine

My feelings are really, really clear on this. My parents detox people who are addicted to drugs and alcohol for a living. I grew up around addicts; I worked for my parents company for a bit; I've had friends do drugs.

I don't tolerate it in my life. Period. I will walk away from someone if they use anything outside of pot (and it took me a long time to accept even pot in my life). I've seen too many people destroyed because of alcohol and drugs; seen too many families torn apart.

Two of my aunts have drug abuse problems, and I've seen how it affects my family and their family. I know, logically, that addiction is a disease. And I have SO MUCH respect for people who are clean, who are fighting to stay clean, and taking it one day at a time. But my aunts aren't there, and haven't ever really been there.

This is my one hard line. It makes me sound like a bitch, and I'm fine with that characterization. I can't have drugs/alcohol in my life. I barely drink, I've only smoked up twice, and I haven't ever touched anything harder. And I won't.

If you disagree with this, fine. Please defriend me or let me know so I can defriend you. I'm that fucking serious about this. I won't even read fic that casually mentions drugs/alcohol. Because it squicks me/touches me/moves me that deeply.

That is all.
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2009-07-08 12:11 pm

Purity Rings

Through a series of random events, I now want to write a story where Brendon has a purity ring, and joins Panic, and basically? Everyone keeps trying to tempt him out of it. It would be funny and humor and I really want to write it. WHY do I suddenly have all these Panic related bunnies when I've never even really liked them!?!??

But, think of it! Bden with a Purity Ring! Ryan being all serious about it, and writing lyrics and asking if they compromised Bden's purity to sing about fucking girls and shit, and Bden being like: "I don't think so?" \o?

And Spencer being like: "I tempt you with the power of my magical hips!"

And Brent (B/c if you haven't figured it out yet, I have a soft spot for him, even though I totally like Jon too!) being all like: "eh, whatever, more pussy for me."

And JON! JON! Jon would get Bden high and try to make him explain it logically, and Brendon would talk about family and stuff, and then the others would hook up and be all respectful of bden and he would want to join in but he'd have to weigh the options and everything.

*sigh*
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2009-07-08 04:03 am

Two Things (possibly more, lets see how this goes...)

1) I thought of a name for my zine, finally! )

2) I haven't really weighed in about the Panic situation, )

3) Work has been really really interesting lately. I have been given significantly more responsibility and my own mini-staff to supervise and I just keep remembering how much I love working with volunteers. LOVE it. I'm still hoping to go to grad school in Fall 2010, I miss learning and I want to get a masters/phd (depending), but i don't know how I'm going to leave all my volunteers that I've spent two or three years building up and I know I'm not indispensable, that other people could do my job, but I don't want someone else to! *whine*
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2009-07-07 07:02 am

Coda: After the Music

I really want to write this into a longer piece, but I have a couple other stories that I'm writing to, currently. This won't make sense if you haven't read After the Music.

NOTE: Unbetaed, because that's just how I roll this early in the morning. Also, this is about the current Panic news that's going around. Don't read if you don't know what I'm talking about.


Pete had the good graces to at least give Brent a heads up... )
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2009-07-02 11:23 pm

Band Girls Big Bang

Hey everyone! For those of you that don't know, I'm in the middle of writing two Big Bang fics. One for Band Girls big bang, and one for Gender Bender big bang. And I'm in desperate need of a beta.

A beta that knows something about Hey Monday and the people in the band and how they would react in different situations/characterization, etc. Which is really hard because I don't even know if there's actual fax Hey Monday fic out there. *nods*

But if you want to volunteer your services, it would be greatly greatly appreciated! I would possibly love you forever and volunteer to have your first born child, or at least mail you a postcard when I get actual stamps (which, um, I don't have).

So, yes. *nods* If any of you want to beta this story, let me know! It should come out to about 10,000 words...
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2009-06-30 10:09 pm

Zine Writing

So, this is going to be a a longer post. Feel free to skip if you don't want to hear about a zine I am really very very serious about figuring out how to put together. I apologize for not LJ cutting it, but this is really important to me and I don't want people to miss it by accident.

I'm starting a zine. I want to (possibly) call it So. Names are still being debated. I want it to be a zine about pride in oneself, specifically geared towards people who identify as female, because in my experience a lot of women are told that their own self-esteem is tied to their appearance (looks, weight, presentation) and I'm sick of that.

A tiny bit of back story. I'm overweight. I have been my entire life, since 4th grade. And I've always, ALWAYS, been made to feel badly about it by my family. They mean well, but they've been "talking" to me about it since I was young. I exercise, I eat (mostly) healthy, and aside from my asthma (which is a chronic condition that is unrelated to my weight) am relatively healthy. I have a couple cavities I need to get looked at. I hate the dentist, but I know I need to go. *sigh*

Anyways. My family is more then likely to comment on my "losing" weight much more often then anything else I've accomplished. I grew up in this environment and subsequently it's really hard for me to be proud of anything I've accomplished because I feel as though I'm not doing "my part" by being skinnier and making it easier for them. Other people don't treat me like this, I'm really lucky because I've never really experienced a lot of discrimination based on my weight.

This issue re: pride came to my attention here on livejournal through a weekly "pride" thread that someone runs. They suggest that once-a-week we take a moment to just feel proud of something we've accomplished. And each week I would ask myself what I felt proud of, what I wanted to post, and I felt like I couldn't post anything because I hadn't magically become skinnier, hadn't magically become more acceptable for my family. And it was bullshit. I was accomplishing amazing things.

I am one of the youngest people to work in operations management (directing large disaster jobs) in the country. I manage an incredible team of volunteers who all love me. I have indescribably amazing friends (even if I feel emo about it at points). I write and love that part of my life. I go to concerts and other places, whereas I used to feel horribly socially anxious around all forms of said entertainment. I have finished my BA. I am planning on going back to school to focus on Sociology and possibly get a PHD, because I want to. I understand social theory and love it. I'm happy.

All of these things are parts of my life that I should be fucking proud of. I should have a comment every week on that pride thread. None of them have ANYTHING to do with my appearance, with my weight, with looking "presentable". I shouldn't just be doing a happy dance when I realize I've gone down a size in clothing. I should be doing a happy dance when I've connected to another volunteer. When I've talked three different young adult volunteers into becoming AmeriCorps members because I think its an amazing program.

And I bet that there are women all over the world who feel the same way. Women who are doing legitimately kick-ass things that have nothing to do with being "pretty" and "thin" and "skinny". People who are curing cancers or just fucking bumming around the country and doing the wandering artist thing. Women, like my friend Vicki, who have just taken off and traveled through parts of the world alone, without a plan. Women who have raised children; women who have given their children up for adoption; women who have learned how to sing; started a D.I.Y. project; taught themselves a skill that they didn't think they'd be able to.

Women who rock and deserve to be celebrated and cherished and told that they are amazing. Because they've taken a chance and accomplished something that maybe they didn't appreciate enough at the time, or other people that surround them didn't appreciate enough.

Women who invent sex toys. Women who learned how to believe in themselves. Etc.

There are hundreds of thousands of women out there, each with something that they're proud of, something that they deserve to be praised for, deserve to shout about from the rooftops and are instead told that they can't because it isn't enough. They aren't smart enough, or happy enough, or thin enough, or white enough, or married or separated or anything and everything and you know what?

Fuck that.

Help me do this, please. Over the next couple of days I'm going to start a LJ community about this. I'm going to start asking people to send in submissions, in any form. I'm going to research how to even start up a zine. Figure out a name. Figure out a website, and get this going. Because I'm proud of myself, and I'm proud of everyone out there, and I want to help other women realize they should be proud of themselves too.
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2009-06-28 01:42 am

Meta -- Warnings in Fiction

So, I swore I wouldn't get involved in this, mostly because my only experiences with any type of Meta come from the Harry Potter fandom and that fandom is a little, um, well--rough on me, meta wise. But it's late and I can't sleep and I've been thinking about it quite a bit. So full warnings.

I might talk about triggery things here, but more likely then not I'll just ramble about nothingness. Skip if you want to. )
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2009-06-26 09:22 pm

Okay, HOW COOL IS THIS?!?!?!!?

Neil Gaiman and Amanda Palmer and GERARD WAY all at the same party, with Amanda live tweeting the entire event?!?!??! It's like #lofnotc can't get any better because all my fandoms and favorite people are COLLIDING. Fourth wall? What fourth wall?

david j (bauhaus) and @jilltracymusic just showed up...on the way: gerard way (my chemical romance), who found a babysitter.


BECAUSE HE FOUND A BABYSITTER. = ]

*GRIN*
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2009-06-20 07:29 pm

Um, I have a new otp?

So, I saw The Cab twice this weekend. They are full of flail and it was TONS, TONS of fun live. I can't wait until August when I go see them again (along with A Rocket to the Moon) in Vegas. I am seriously super excited.

Friday night I saw The What Happens in Vegas Tour at The Roxy )
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2009-06-15 11:37 pm

A Few Quick Updates

1) I want this shirt. SO BADLY. -- It's two of my obsessions combined and stylish, to boot! Thank you, A Rocket to the Moon!

2) I updated my fic masterlist and all the different Bandom stories I've written are on there. Next step? Adding all my SGA fic. Probably will get done this weekend.

3) Postcards. I bought four post cards today because they were super cute and I am totally in a writing mood. If you want a postcard mailed to you let me know. First four will get it! Comment and I'll message you back, pm style.

4) I had a mini breakdown on the phone w/ my mom tonight. I do put a lot of stress on myself and I realize that it isn't good. I need to start accepting that I'm a good person, on a gut level, and that it won't change no matter how much money I make or what letters are after my name on my resume. To that end, I want to thank everybody for reading my BBB fic. I appreciated your comments more then you can ever know.

5) I have a minion at work, now! I have an assistant for the next 8 weeks and I'm kind of amazed by this! They get paid to help me! *grin* Plus? She's a good friend.

ETA: Clearly, the following tweet means that Cash is a slasher at heart. Possibly.

cashstwit: @wethehunter I miss you. Hug the bro for me and touch yourself to the thought of me. Sweet dreams

ETA AGAIN: I forgot--newest irvine Blink 182 date has been announced! I will dip into my savings and buy two tickets because it's BLINK 182 AND FALL OUT BOY, in the state of California, TOGETHER. FUCK YES.
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2009-06-13 07:08 am

Generation Kill

So, a while ago I picked up a book by the author of Generation Kill. I forget his name. And amazon tells me it's Evan Wright. Additionally, if i want to buy the DVD's they are on sale now (20 something dollars instead of 60. Hmmm).

Anyways, I didn't pick up Generation Kill (although I will next time!) but rather Hella Nation and have been slowly working my way through the different pieces.

I have decided that this book is my new default for ANY ideas for AU fic. I just read an entire essay on underground skateboard culture and how it works and how sponsorship works and everything and I'm like: "ohhh, Gee could do that! And Frank!" and my mind, it goes to sick sick places.

Seriously, the ENTIRE BOOK is about different groups of outcasts and what they do and I'm like: "Eeeeee! So wonderful!" and thought I'd pass it on. Evan Wright has this ability to integrate seamlessly with a group and really see what they are like on the inside. I'd make comments about anthropology and how this entire book reminds me of extended field studies, but that would make it sound like I actually liked anthropology, and after my Intro course more then 5 years ago now? Well...

So pick it up if you have the extra cash and are so inclined. Amazon has it for sale AND I even linked it above.

After I finish this book I"m moving on to another non-fiction book. I tend to only read non-fiction these days, which is weird. Non-fiction or young adult. Please rec me some non-fiction books! Otherwise i'm gonna have to get started on Guns, Germs, and Steel.

That is all. Go back to your regularly scheduled Saturday's and think of me at work, behind a desk, for the next 8 hours. *sigh*
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2009-06-12 01:23 am

Hey Monday -- Lets Make A Mess Tour

I'm exhausted but wanted to post a quick thing before I go to sleep. I had a lot of fun tonight at the Hey Monday show in LA. It was tiny and the bands had a lot of energy. We got there in time for This Providence (?) and then Hey Monday. Hey Monday's set was kind of short, but they were fun (as previously mentioned). They covered Slide by Goo Goo Dolls and about half of the people there didn't know the song, which made it interesting. I felt OLD.

The best part? They do this thing where they hand out plastic cups to throw on stage (get it? get it? they're living up to the name of their tour!) and then their tech guy scurries around and collects them because they have to keep reusing the cups at each stop. *grin* (okay, he probably collects them because the band doesn't want to trip, but still!)

The lead singer (who's name I forgot) is super skinny and the drummer i really, really energetic. All together it was worth the 1 1/2 drive and the cheap tickets. *nods*

Oh yeah, the fire alarm was going off when we entered the building and my friend and i told a lot of jokes about how we aren't prepared b/c we were entering a burning building...*shrug*

NIght, all!
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2009-06-11 07:23 am

Bandom Big Bang related

A couple of people have asked for a PDF version of After the Music, so I converted my story to PDF. I thought I'd share the link here in case anybody else wants to download it.

After the Music, PDF

The only thing I ask is that you not post it on other websites. Thanks!
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2009-06-09 10:06 pm

Bandom Big Bang

Okay, so I totally have no room to complain because I'm part of it. I recognize this! I'm a hypocrite! I'm just--overwhelmed.

I'm so excited to read the different stories that are coming out of [livejournal.com profile] bandombigbang but at the same time there are just SO MANY and they're all so long and I have SO MUCH FUCKING WORK TO DO!! and it's just -- ahhhh! So, I'm apologizing right now because I'm about to take Bandom Big Bang OFF my friends list and not look at the different fic until this weekend when I have time to breath.

I apologize to all of my friends, who are writing stories and posting and squeeing because I want to be squeeing with you and everything but I just can't right now. *sigh* This weekend, I promise!

And it isn't just that I posted my story and I'm done with it, I promise. It's just--life is going crazy and fandom is going crazy and then coming home and finding 200,000 plus words being posted, I'm scared i'll start reading instead of doing what I need to do and that would not be of the good.

~~

I also made a real-life fandom friend! who reads fic! yay! RLF ftw! because I haven't had any close to my age that live locally and also are geeky and read sci fi and everything. *nods*
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2009-06-04 08:14 pm

Good news and a favor

Okay, so I got my Bandom Big Bang fic post date! It's June 9th (tuesday) and I'm soooo excited! My story is finished, completely (final edits--wanna go through it once more) and it's all ready!

ALSO, I got some amazing art AND the best fanmix ever! A lot of great music and it fits the themes and mood of my story and I'm just amazed. Ya'll should be jealous because I get to enjoy this for a few days before the rest of you get to see it. *grin*

That said, I'm in an angsty mood and want to write. I will write drabbles tonight, 5 of them, in either Bandom, Stargate Atlantis, or well, ask and you might receive. The key? I want to write ANGST! Make the requests sad and interesting and you'll probably get it right away!
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2009-06-04 06:31 am

Jonas Brother's

So, it seems like half my friendslist is in lust or something with the Jonas Brothers. I don't know what I think about them, but I do read the fic and it's all A+++++++ which is a yay! thing, indeed.

I saw this online and clicked to see what it said.

Jonas Brother's Could Be Seduced, Says Mom

Basically? It says that their mom knows they're male and have hormones. And it didn't come out and say it, but it implied that people (aka fangirls or something) might want to seduce the JoBro's and their male and can't help themselves.

It actually pissed me off because the tone implied that b/c they're male it's not their fault if they can't exercise control. I am not a virgin, I'm not married--but I never made a pledge to remain a virgin until I got married. If I had made that pledge though, I'm pretty sure the "oh, well, um, it's their fault" excuse wouldn't necessarily work. And yeah. *sigh*

I know I'm rambling. It's just--the article pissed me off w/ its gender stereotypes.
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2009-06-03 08:24 am

Concerts

Thoughts:

For those of you that don't know, I kind of reallyreallyreally like this small band called A Rocket to the Moon. Like, a lot. It's kind of epic how much I like them. I don't know why, or anything, because I can't stand their first EP at all (dude, autotune ftl!) but their second one had considerably less autotune and they have this tendency to cover country music in concert (like taylor swift).

The main guy is totally flail-y and slightly adorable, but not really cute (if that makes sense) and ya know, I don't want to jump anyone in the band (because none of them are FRANK!) but still. I <3 this band for whatever reason and *sigh*

So, on August 9th A Rocket to the Moon is playing w/ The Cab in Vegas. I wanted to see The Cab already, and tickets are dirt, dirt, dirt cheap (11 dollars, anyone?).

My problem is on August 8th I have to be in San Diego to see Panic At the Disco and No Doubt concert w/ my sister, and I'm down with that. The following morning I can drive the 4 hours to Vegas and see the other concert. It's just, the first that I want to take with me will have to come down to SD and just kind of chill while I'm at the first concert (which, hmmm, I can talk to her about) and then we can go to vegas and take a few days to just enjoy ourselves.

We were talking about going away on a vacation together anyway. Hmmmmm.

Also? The Cab are playing in LA on June 19th and I am free and tickets are dirt cheap again (13 dollars ftw!) but I have no one to go with! NO ONE! This is the saddest thing b/c I'm not yet brave enough to go to concerts alone. *sigh* if I have to i can ask my sister to go with but shes not fun at concerts and doesn't really like them and doesn't flail around or squee. at all.

Movies alone? not a problem. Dinner? sure. Concerts? Not quite yet. *sigh*

My life, so hard! *snickers*

AND on June 12 Neko Case is playing in LA and I"m trying to decide if I want to splurge (these tickets are NOT dirt cheap) and buy two tickets b/c my friend wants to go w/ me but she can't afford a ticket and tbh? I can't really either. BUT NEKO CASE!!!!!!!!

I feel like I need a part-time job to afford the different concerts I want to go to. *sigh*

Anybody out there have a solution? Anybody out there ever gone to a concert alone? What do I do?!!?!?!?